really need help

Assalaamu Alaikum,

I pray that you get the answers you seek. If you have not already, I would suggest seeking a mental health professional (psychiatrist and therapist) who specializes in OCD in addition to seeking help from Islamic scholars. And yes, I typically consult with Islamic scholars, to make sure my responses align with Islamic values.

OCD is a disorder on the anxiety spectrum meaning the uncontrollable, behaviors, thoughts and rituals manifested in a person with OCD are attempts to control some level of anxiety. With the right combination of treatments including therapy, challenging your obsessive thoughts, lifestyle changes, relaxation and stress management, your symptoms can be so much more manageable. Please see the link to an excellent article for more details on this:
https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/obssessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd.htm

To get in touch with Islamic scholars, you can contact your local masjid or Islamic community center to see if they can guide you to someone who can help answer your questions around Islamic laws and rulings. Your other option is you can ask your question more specifically on this forum and we can do our best to present your questions to scholars and try to get answers for you, inshaAllah.

Your Sister in Islam,

Fatima “AH”

Walayakum Assalam dear sister/brother, it is admirable that you are concerned about this and are trying to search for answers from reliable scholars. However, we must remember that Allah does not place too much in our deen so that we may become overwhelmed. It reminds me of the ayah (185) of Baqarah where Allah is telling us to fast for Ramadan. In that ayah, Allah mentions- يُرِيدُ ٱللَّهُ بِكُمُ ٱلْيُسْرَ وَلَا يُرِيدُ بِكُمُ ٱلْعُسْرَ  “Allah wishes for you ease and does not wish for you hardship.” Since these thoughts are becoming difficult for your mental well being, it might be a possibility for you to reach out to your local masjid to contact the imam. Or if you have someone close to you that you trust, you could ask them as well. If you follow any particular school of Islamic thought, there may be courses online you could take to further your understanding. Sometimes too, when the shaytan sees someone trying to get closer to Allah, he will cause that person to doubt themselves; hoping that it reaches the point where the person just gives up all together because it is too much to handle, which is why Allah does not overwhelm us with so many rules and regulations like the previous nation- Bani Israel had. Allah knows what we can and cannot handle. I hope that this helped you, may Allah relieve you of your worries and stresses, ameen.